I want to be understood

Since I was in high school I was called "the mature one", it was a pleasure and sometimes it was something to be proud.

When I grew up I tried to find someone like me or someone to share with this maturity. Maybe I found it but unreasonably I couldn't chat with that person so I tried to find someone else.

I'm still searching..

I want to find him/her as soon as possible because I'm tired of being always understanding. I want to be understood too!

Habit

When time passes unconsciously is obvious that people change. Personally you do not notice it so you blame others.

It hurts when you realize that what you were used to do before now it hasn't the same reaction or participation of before.

I'm upset not with others but with myself. Even if I know that it's not like before I'm still doing the same thing, as the cicada which continues to play despite the change of season, and then I end in tears in the middle of the night.