Emptiness

I wanna understand
this emptiness I'm feeling.
The world is too loud
I wanna be alone
just me and my instinct
maybe somehow
I will see through
this unconscious feeling.
No more words
I wanna hear
just the gentle silence
like the fresh wind of spring

that sensation of freedom
that I'll never be able to reach,
it's unconditionally comfortable
but once it stops

it seems to fall in an infinite hole
and I start to dream again and again.
But this emptiness won't disappear
and answers there's no one..

Unreal

I can't understand this feeling..

I'm not confused but it seems

that someone (in another world),

wants to challenge me.

It's not the first time,

actually it's the third or fourth time

I think..

It's strange how this

kind of feeling can make

you paralyze and shocked..

I don't know if you already

felt this way, because if you did

then please let me know..

Too perfect

Tell me why I'm so confused

You are everything for me

But sometimes I want to escape

It seems too perfect

or too unreal

What we built together

I keep asking myself

if there's something wrong

but it's so clear

Our relationship has no hole

It's full of colors and

we've been together for long..

Tell me why I'm so confused

It seems too perfect

and too unreal

But I like it.

Fulfill you beh

Day by day I love you more

No one can stop this feeling

I hurt you before but now

I'm keeping you tightly

by my side

I'm not what you really

wished to have

but I'm trying to fulfill

the emptiness

I'm not sweet

I'm a cold person

but it doesn't mean

that i don't have

feelings for you

Resist you

How could i resist you

Whatever you do it's awesome

In my eyes you're everything

I may sound pathetic

but just holding your hand

I feel much better

I want to be understood

Since I was in high school I was called "the mature one", it was a pleasure and sometimes it was something to be proud.

When I grew up I tried to find someone like me or someone to share with this maturity. Maybe I found it but unreasonably I couldn't chat with that person so I tried to find someone else.

I'm still searching..

I want to find him/her as soon as possible because I'm tired of being always understanding. I want to be understood too!

Habit

When time passes unconsciously is obvious that people change. Personally you do not notice it so you blame others.

It hurts when you realize that what you were used to do before now it hasn't the same reaction or participation of before.

I'm upset not with others but with myself. Even if I know that it's not like before I'm still doing the same thing, as the cicada which continues to play despite the change of season, and then I end in tears in the middle of the night.